you may not know it, but i'm a genius.

Well, my last post (before the videos) i talked about a new plan for roman's sleeping. Consider that plan squashed! After 4 depressing days of doing nothing but sitting in a rocking chair all the days long and a slight break down, jeff and i decided this was probably not going to work for us. Not only was i in a chair all day, i didnt talk to anyone in the 'outside' world. Which for me is practically torture. I prayed...oh how I prayed, for God to give me patience to see this through and for the wisdom to know if it's the 'right' thing for us or not. After my little emotional break down, it was apparent this was not our thing. I dont know what is, or even if we have a 'thing', but i'm sure that was not it! So, Roman and I are just going with the flow. I'm going to stop reading books on it and just see what happens. He's over 5 months now; I'm sure he'll figure something out! :) Needless to say, i've been filling my days up with at least one outing at some point during the day. Whether it's target to just walk around, or a friends for lunch, or a walk in the morning around the neighborhood, i will make it outside of my house once a day. Maybe not everyday, but definitely most days of the week. It's good mental health for me.

Another Roman trial is his gassiness. So i decided to cut out dairy to see if that helps cause i've read and heard that it makes a world of difference. It's been probably 3 to 3 1/2 weeks since i've done this very difficult task when that is pretty much your diet all together, and i've been asked if i've seen any difference in roman's little body. To that I usually respond with a(n), "eeeehhhhh, yeeeaaahhhh, maybe? I dont know really...'

And then, just today it dawned on me while i was out running errands. Since i've 'cut out' dairy, i've been consuming a LOT of bread. (you'd think that once you cut a large part of you diet out, you'd be losing weight or something....not me, cause i have been filling that void with BREAD!!!) :) I love bread. love it. love it. love it. But today i got to thinking. Hmmm, how is bread made? what ingredients are used to make it?

DUH!!!!!!!!!

Contains: wheat, soy and MILK!!!

I am an idiot! :) so NO. of course i cant tell a difference in roman's gassiness cause i haven't REALLY cut out dairy!! DANG IT!! i was working so hard to not eat it too! ugh. It takes up to 2 weeks for it to completely leave your system. So now i dont know what to do! bread is pretty much my livelihood at the moment. I really dont know what else to eat! and i dont really know what i'm going to do about it. oh man. what a predicament! (it's really not as bad as it sounds....just so you know).

I just thought i should tell you that i'm pretty much a genius. :)